| Results of the Fall (revisited):
My journal entry from Saturday, August 11, 2007. Enjoy- "I think I am still dealing with perfectionism. And I am a control person. And I get stressed about there being stress. I worry about somethhing stressing me out. I have becmome super sensitive, phobic about my body (like an old church, ingrown to my problems). I desire You to rescue me from this. Help me to relax. I am trying to live, to thrive, to prosper, to enjoy life, to maintain heaven on earth. The fact is-this world sucks. It is broken, imperfect, stained, tainted, barely habitable because of sin. My body is dying and there is nothing I can do about it. It will be sore, injured, anxious, sick, headached, numbed, cramped, tired, hungry, naucious, stressed, tight, a mess. The kids will act up in the vehicle because there is sin, stresses on them too, our minds are all fallen cloudy. Things will never be perfect here on earth, because of sin; it is a broken existence. Mars is no better either. Expect that things are going to go wrong and learn how to function on that. The pool water is going to be too cold, the hot tub too hot and will probably mess up your body. The lights will probably be all read and the fact that there are lights shows that the world is fallen. Car repair will always be expensive and your car will always faulter. This is the result of sin. Even in yor marriage0Shellie is going to get you mad daily, as you will make her mad twice daily! You honor God. In fact, you will probably be somewhat off, sick for the rest of your life on earth. So don't become utopian and try to fight something much bigger than yourself. you honor God and let Him be your joy. And think much of Heaven, which is unmarred by sin. Oh, and your time with the Lord will be clouded and you will be distracted. Deal with it. Father, thank you for your clarity. Love, your son, Jeff PS- So when God blesses you & thinkgs work out well, know that God is showing you how much He loves you and that you are one of His favorites...and be thankful." |